Pray Recklessly

Have you ever felt you needed to pray for something, but couldn’t bring yourself to say the words?

I had a friend ask me a question the other day, “Is there hope for restoration? Should I pray for that?” she asked. Valid question. I laughed and replied “It depends who you ask”.

My ex-husband proposed to his girlfriend the day that I sent him a letter of repentance, asking for a second (third…) chance. I had felt God tell me to write this letter and as it sat there in my Outgoing Messages, I prayed…I let it sit and marinate for a bit. Did God really want me to write this letter? Was it just my emotions taking over? I hadn’t found out about the proposal until a couple days later, so it wasn’t that detail that was affecting me, but maybe the emotions of Easter weekend, maybe being in my home town again, maybe being with family…

So the letter sat for a day or so, and I prayed, asking God what I should do.

I felt an overwhelming, heavy feeling that if I didn’t send it, I would regret it for the rest of my life.

So I sent it.

Sometimes our steps of obedience don’t make sense in that moment. The results are confusing and we wonder if we even heard God correctly. But just because they don’t make sense for now, doesn’t mean we shouldn’t have taken that step.

“Is there hope?”

I don’t see any.

He’s remarried and seems to be happy.

But should that stop our prayers?

It’s as though we think that our words will confuse God. We can’t pray for something that will throw him off. If we ask for something outside of what he’s doing he might just answer it and then where would the plan be?! We’d ALL be in a mess!

That’s not how it is at all.

We can ask whatever we want of the Lord. We can ask for hope for restoration, even when it looks like that prayer won’t, or maybe even shouldn’t, be answered. We can ask for prodigals to return, even when it looks like they’re actually making the best of their situation. We can ask for changed hearts, impossibilities to become possible, doors to be opened, hearts to be softened…it doesn’t mean that God is going to say yes. And if he does, it’s in his will.

You can pray for hope even when it may seem wrong that you ask for that.

The only catch is that you need to be aware that the answer might be “no”. We need to hold our conversations with God in high regard, knowing that we are able to present our requests to him no matter what they are, and that he has the foresight to say yes or no.

Our prayers have the power to change the world and the people around us. They are POWERFUL and EFFECTIVE but it doesn’t mean that God will scramble to answer them if they’re not in his plan already. Our prayers for the impossible don’t send God into a frenzy. They don’t make him panic because they’ve thrown off his groove. Instead, they’re communication with our Creator and that’s what God wants and our hearts crave. They soften our own hearts to knowing Gods answer is the best for us, even if we can’t see it in the moment.

“God, this is where I’m at, this is what I desire, if it’s your will…and if it’s not, guide me through that as well.”

So when my friend asked if there was hope and I laughed, it was because there’s always hope, regardless of how we view the situation. There’s hope that God has a plan and it will most likely look much different than we predict. Just because we view something as hopeless, doesn’t mean it’s true.

So go ahead and pray for hope. Pray for restoration. Pray for changed hearts. Pray for the impossible. Our prayers are heard and welcomed. God may say no, but we don’t have to feel guilty for praying for something that seems strange. We just have to realize that whatever happens with that prayer and with God’s answer was in his will and plan.

 

I Know

Some of my biggest passions are sexual intimacy, helping the struggling marriage and the Christian walk after divorce. I often feel attacked in these areas, as though my divorced relational status should silence my opinion. But there’s nothing that will get me fired up faster or make my eyes come alive quicker than starting to talk about these life subjects.

It was six years ago when I was packing my belongings to leave my husband. On top of the confusion of my decision to leave one thing that he couldn’t understand was why God had so clearly told him to marry me. Why would God have done this if He knew it would end in divorce?

I don’t know the answer to this, but what I do know is that what Satan intends for evil, God turns into good.

I know that because of my marital struggles and how I gave up, I am now able to speak into other lives to encourage them to stay in their marriages when times get tough.

I know that I am now passionate about the marriage Covenant and the vows we make to our spouses.

I know that because of hitting rock bottom and having only God’s hand to grab hold of, I have seen miracles that I didn’t think were possible.

I know that because of God’s dramatic movement in my life it is possible for others as well.

I know the power of prayer and reality for complete heart-change that can come from it.

I know now the importance of spending time with God daily and the difference that can make in mental health.

Do I believe that God wanted my husband and I to go through divorce? No. I don’t believe that was in His ideal plan. I do believe, though, that God has taught me lessons through this process that have changed me for the better. I do believe that because of these lessons I can have more grace for those struggling around me. It’s because of these lessons that I can speak into their lives and help their marriage. And it’s because of these lessons that I have a deep and personal relationship with the Lord.

It’s because of this relationship with God and the heart-changes I’ve had throughout the divorce process that makes me so excited to see what God has next. If God can change me when it looked as though there was no hope, He can change anyone.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Calling

I feel like God has a special calling on my life. It’s a big calling, a scary one, but the more I live within that calling the more it fuels the fire inside of me to continue in it.

I look back on my life and I see where I have felt God leading me to this point. I also see those times where I’ve had Mission Drift.

I know what God is asking of me. I know what He wants me to be speaking about. I know what part of my story is to become my testimony. But isn’t it just so easy to become distracted?

We are so lucky to have such a gentle and patient God that allows us to make mistakes and quietly leads us back to where He wants us to be.

There’s so many things that I love and that I want to be involved in. So many good things that can take my time and focus. Yes, they are good things. They are time with friends, education, helping others, volunteering etc. But what is it that God wants for me? There is good and then there is great.

When I was younger I was working full time from home selling a body-care product. I loved this product and where I saw it taking me. I loved the work I was putting into it, the women I was surrounded with, the passion I felt.

At a training conference with this company, I looked over the stadium filled with over 8,000 women and a thought crossed my mind. If I spent just as much time and dedication on God, what would my faith look like? If we were all here for the Lord, how powerful would that be?

Of course, at that time, I didn’t go further with that thought. It was just an interesting moment that crossed my mind. But now, hindsight tells me if I had acted on it, my marriage most likely wouldn’t have failed.

Now, every time a good opportunity comes across my path, I balance it with my relationship with the Lord. Will this further my faith-walk? Is this what God wants for me? Is this within my calling?

I need extra money and I could sell products again. But what if God wants to show me that I can rely on Him for the extras and to spend that time on Him instead? He has taught me that every moment doesn’t have to be filled but that I can rest and let Him look after me.

I often feel myself easily flowing towards Mission Drift and I catch myself. I don’t want do fall off my path only to realize later I’m way off course. I want to keep my eyes firmly focused, with stubborn faith, on my Jesus. I know that His journey for me not only is better for me, but that it follows my personal passions, the ones that were built inside of me. I know that sometimes He will ask that I put things aside because He has something better in store up ahead.

His mission for my life will fill my soul and quench my thirst for purpose and meaning, which I think the world is desperately searching for. I continue to be reminded of this lesson and continue to balance myself with Jesus as my focus. And I hope that by being obedient to Him I can help lead others around me to God’s calling in their lives and help their souls feel the peace I’ve been blessed with.

Focus on Him and everything else blurs on the sidelines.